Today I am 38. About a month ago I was convinced I was turning 37 this year and Mike confirmed that the number was, in fact, 38. And Mike’s younger than me- four full years younger than me. His birthday is in a few weeks, making today the start of him reminding me that for twenty-two days a year, there are actually five numbers between our ages. All in jest, of course, and I laugh about it. I know he’s just teasing, and the truth is, I have a confession to make: I love getting older.
Most people, especially women, have unsettling feelings about aging. And I get it. I don’t love the crow’s feet and the other inevitable body changes that are coming any more than any of you do. But I truly don’t have any qualms about my age. Seriously. I just feel lucky to be alive and well and wiser than ever.
The way I see it, we have a choice here. We can dread the fact that every 365 days, we’re going to add another number to our age, or we can embrace it- I mean, fully, embrace it. I simply refuse to feel bad or ashamed or dismayed about the number of years I’ve spent living my beautiful life. And I wouldn’t turn back time for anything.
Over the last decade, I met and fell in love with my husband, had two beautiful babies, bought a home, renovated said home, and successfully rented out my investment property. I’ve held jobs, left jobs, started my own freelance business, started this blog. I’ve stood by my friend’s sides as they got married, became mothers, and had their own personal successes. I’ve watched my parents adore my babies just like they love me, and it’s given me more appreciation for them than I ever had before. I’ve been creative, I’ve been active, I’ve traveled, and I’ve watched my family grow and grow and grow. I’ve laughed ’til I cried. I’ve grown personally, and I’ve grown in terms of my ambition. Ten years ago my sister was pregnant with my first nephew. Today, I have four nephews and another one due next month. Life has shown me that it only gets fuller.
If I could say one thing to the girl I was a decade ago, it would be this- it gets better. And better. I wouldn’t rewind a minute, not even to my most grand missteps. I am smarter and humbler and kinder and more confident today than I was ten years ago. I look forward to everything that’s in store and I feel genuinely lucky to be here.
I leave you with this Sophia Loren quote:
“There is a fountain of youth: it is your mind, your talents, the creativity you bring to your life and the lives of people you love. When you learn to tap this source, you will truly have defeated age.”